Lately inspiration has been fleeting. I recline in my comfy sofa with good intentions. Thoughts of posts flicker and evaporate. Instead of staying productive, I play on Facebook, Twitter and/or Pinterest and eventually go to bed without publishing.
what the heck?
Blogging is a spiritual outlet for me. I am content and connected when I post regularly. If this is the case, what does it say that I can’t come up with a decent topic? Am I in a spiritual drought?
I visit my usual haunts for writing prompts and nothing speaks to me. Maybe I should do eeny meeny minee mo and write regardless. By forcing myself to post, am I circumventing the entire spiritual aspect? Erff!
This whole being OK in the present thing doesn’t really work when I am stressed about why I’m not writing. Throughout the journey, I continually face the fact that spirituality unattainable when I am in anxiety mode.
big exhale…start over.
Tonight, I hope to discover inspiration through a good quote. It may not seem romantic or creative, but if I compare a quote to a prompt, it might just do the trick. Goodreads is a decent place to start.
So many quotes to choose from. This might be more complicated than originally thought. Daisy snores quietly by my side as I tap the keyboard. I need a quote that relates well to spirituality and life in general.
“We don’t see things as they are, we see them as we are.”
― Anaïs Nin
HOW FITTING!!!! If I see myself as a dried up well of uncreativeness; I am. You may be sitting there thinking, “Geez! Don’t be such a whiny pain in the ass.” You also would be correct. It’s all about perspective. In reality, you are probably not giving this a whole lot of thought. I tend to over analyze stuff like this.
get your droughts here
I cannot influence the weather. There are drought conditions whether or not I like it. That is life in the desert. I’m used to it and in all truth I like the dry climate.
I have a preconceived notion that there is something wrong with an uncreative streak. If I adjust my thought process I might see things in a different light. Just because I am currently lacking inspiration, doesn’t mean it will last forever.
taking it a step further
The quote reminds me of the awful attribute of projection. I say awful because it is unfair to assume others believe and react like I do. Stereotypes, biases, bigotry all lend themselves to projection of ideals upon others.
For example, when I went back to school in my thirties, I was terrified of what others saw. Did I appear a washed up (not withered though) old woman who wanted to live life as a 20-something girl?
In the end, I didn’t give a crap what anyone thought. It was most likely all in my head anyway. Graduating in my forties didn’t turn me into someone who was trying too hard holding onto youth. I wanted more from life and elected to achieve it.
what matters now
I am not an old shriveled prune, nor a spring flower. I think more than who I am, it is where I am that matters now.
Suddenly, I am not feeling so uncreative as before. Big smile here. Who are you and where are you going in life? Share your thoughts and stories.